Crappy Thanksgiving

That's right, I don't think it's going to be a happy Thanksgiving, I think it's going to be a crappy Thanksgiving. To start with, this is my first time not having a holiday with my family in my entire life, and I have to meet Eric's extended family as well. So I don't get all of my fun traditions that normally come with holidays such as this, and I have to make sure I act normal and nice and make polite conversation and meet a bunch of new people who I'll probably only see once before I even get married. How fun is that going to be-a day of meeting people I don't know and making awkward polite conversation, instead of having a fabulous time hanging out with my family and enjoying the day, joking around and being loud and normal with people that I know and love. Also, I had no idea we were having a ton of people at the Novak house this Thanksgiving, I thought it would be relatively small, but I've heard that we're having anywhere from 40-60 people, although I don't know how accurate that number is. Still, I would like to see some of my relatives that I haven't seen since the last wedding this past July. And to top it all off, Gina thinks that mom might be mad that I'm not going to be home. When is it ok not to be home for the holidays? It's not that I don't want to be home, obviously I would love to be home, I just have responsibilities that come with a long term relationship that include me missing holidays at home. I hate responsibilites. I hate Thanksgiving. I hate that I normally love holidays, but I am not looking forward to any of them anymore. Crappy Thanksgiving to you too.